Reawakening

Just a lil' something that's on my mind.. it won't make sense, it really doesn't have to..

My world is on a whirlwind & I feel like a butterfly, being taken through different directions, trying to brace myself for wherever the wind may take me. Suddenly it seems changes are happening & I am fine with it because it's no use trying to be in control. Just let life happen, as it should & it will take its own course. I see the world in a completely different light than I did a month ago. Somehow I was so sheltered, and now my cocoon has been opened & I'm free to explore it all & take it all in. I just want to have hope that the world is not such a bad place. I want to see a better world, & somehow impact as many lives as I can, as many lives have impacted me. Even people whom you barely know, can make quite an impact on you. I came across a troubled soul & feel saddened for the outcome that entrapped this afflicted soul. I only pray & hope that he made it through just fine, that the things that happened in his life that made him think or believe that he couldn't make it somehow that he could get one last chance to be at peace. I think that's what he was looking for & if only I could've had more time to get to know him maybe I could've helped somehow. I don't want to think of the what ifs, it's only normal. I myself need to find my own peace & resolution through all of this. I just wonder why did I have to find this other opportunity & I am being challenged left & right. A couple of days ago I had an epiphany. I realized that all it was, was a challenge to push me to grow. For me to not rely on others to be my comfort, but to find the comfort within myself. I feel stronger than I was a month ago. I never knew that I could go through so many emotions & experiences in such a short time. It just amazes me how I made it through. I know the best is yet to come &  this is only happening to better equip me. It hasn't been easy, but I will say that I feel such hope in myself that I know I can find my inner strength & find solace where I least thought I would. I found it inside my soul. My soul has been re-awakened, my soul feels strong, my soul feels ready to keep growing to the furthest heights it could go.. & that could be endless. I am happy, I am blessed, I am loved.